I'm sorry if this is in the wrong section, or if this is just inappropriate.

I've been using these forums for quite some time now. I confess I am a leecher. I don't want to be a pornstar. And I'm also just non-talkative by nature.
But now I have a problem and I'm turning to this forum for help. I've never posted much here, but I can't think of anyone qualified to ask... except this forum.

I like sex. Alot. I like jerking it. I like porn. I KNOW I like yiffy and anthro and all that. But I don't know if I like beastiality. I watch it and it turns me on, and sometimes I jerk off. But after I jerk off, I feel bad about it. I don't when I'm jerking off to something else. Just beastiality.

Did anyone else ever feel that way? I'm worried that, at the bottom of it all, I'm really disgusted by it, and its that feeling of it being wrong or dirty that makes me want it.

But I'm not sure. It turns me on, and I'm not sure if that's for a good reason or a bad reason.

Any thoughts?

(Also list the rules I'm breaking... >.> Not new here. Just new to posting.)

Maybe it could be in FAQ. You sound perplexed with yourself, it's enjoyable but you do not feel comfortable after you have got your rock off. Maybe it's just the thrill of the chase that appeases thee, and when the act is complete you feel empty.

I really doubt you are disgusted by beastie behavior. I say beastie versus zooie because a zooie relationship is one that goes beyond the sexual aspect, as well as often including it. That said, I think your problem may lie more in a generalized guilt that a lot of new zoos and beasties feel as they struggle to come to terms with their feelings and desires. You must remember the kinds of lifestyle beasties and zoos lead is one of the most taboo there is and have been in history. Especially in 21st century western culture has it been vilified. That is because there has been a long history of socializing our children to believe that it is unnatural, abhorent and evil. Its very hard as adults to dig out and discard the indoctrination of a lifetime. Some people struggle tremendously all their adult lives to come to grips with their desires and can never do so. I doubt you actually feel beastie, and maybe even zooie, behavior is disgusting, since you seem to be instinctively gravitating toward it. But maybe your innate fears that you yourself may be outside the norm, are forcing you to try and reject it. At least reject it at a subconscious if not a conscious level. You say that you don't feel bad when masturbating to furry art. Well, maybe that's because its just cartoons and not reality. You are not forced subconsciously to deal with the prospect of sex with a furry girl/boy. But bestiality and zoophila, now those are real world prospects with real world consequences, and that closeness of reality may be too unsettling to deal with, at least at this point in your life. I personally have never had a problem dealing with my own attraction to animals. But does an attraction to watching beastie activities necessarily mean that you yourself are into physically trying it? No, there are large segments of the population that may enjoy watching a particular kind sexual activity, but none the less have no desire to try it. The only real thing I can recommend as layman is to try and really dig out and exam all the feelings you are having with regard to your attraction to beastie activities. If they really really really bother you, to the extant that you worry constantly about it, that it affects all parts of your life; then I would suggest hashing it out with a psychologist. Hope what I have said helps, good luck.
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Don't worry, you didn't break any rules that I know of. :thinking:

I understand much of what your saying. I've been active with two male dogs, yet I've experienced similar feelings. Often times right after having sex with them, I'd say to myself, now was this really necessary! Why did I just have sex with a dog when I have a loving husband and a great sex life! What if my mother or father or even my siblings saw what I was doing!

So I'd often feel guilty about it afterwards. Yet those feelings never prevented me from doing it again and again. Society views bestiality as wrong and immoral, so I don't wonder why you feel guilt after jerking off to animal porn. But it obviously turns you on. So as long as it doesn't interfere with the rest of your life, I suggest you just enjoy the pleasure zoo porn brings to you.

I've thought about it alot, and read what you guys said. Thanks for responding, it's nice to hear some support and feedback.

I think I understand why I feel this way. I know that zoolove is a good thing, and that people can have good sexual relationships with other kinds of animals than humans. But I don't think I really want one. I like watching other men have sex with dogs, but I don't want to take their place. I want to take the dog's place.

Other gay porn feels cheap to me. Because of the way I was raised, sex between two men will always seem taboo to me, no matter how much I like it. There's a part of me that will never stop rejecting it on some level. A relationship where my companion completely accepted me would feel unreal.

There's a part of me that wants to persevere through that rejection.

In short, I think it would be wrong for me to try zoophilia myself. I could not accept asking an animal to love me if I couldn't love it completely back. I know that probably sounds weird, but I don't think I could do it.

Thanks again for responding.

I don't mean to pry, but what exactly is holding you back? Is it really YOU who does not want to explore further, or is it that you've been told that it is wrong?

If you like it, not doing so because others might think you're weird can tear you up inside (I know it did for me).

Ultimately its a decision you will have to make, but do it of your own accord. Don't let other dictate what you do, or run your life. Your life is yours to live, not theirs.