I do not know what I am writing here or how long it will be. I just feel like there is so much that I need to tell the world. This is dedicated to my little love Sydney. Sydney, you have taught me so much. Everyday I grow with you. We will continue to grow together and teach each other everything that we need to know.

How can one express the joy of holding your love in your arms? She was brought home to me on Christmas eve.

I held you then, you were wrapped in that little pink blanket. I looked deep into your eyes as you embraced my warmth. Looked deep into your soul and saw nothing other then pure love. Never will I forget that moment where I first held you, my love. It lasted but a few seconds and will forever be etched upon my heart.

The day wore on. You began to discover the house that was your new home. Started to run around and get into trouble as all little pups do. But it was also on that day that we discovered that you were blind. We feared for you then. In our ignorance of the facts. Feared what kind of life you would have. But I made a promise to you that day, my love. I promised that I would stay with you. Promised that you would stay with me. Promised that I would never turn my back on you.

Time moved on and our bond began to tighten. You were afraid. You could not trust. It was clear that you had been through to much. But I remained. There by your side. Helping you with all the challenges that you faced. Together we learned. Together we discovered a new world. Together we still do.

You learned how to walk down the stairs. One challenge that had caused you so much pain. But not any longer. You learned how to con people into giving you a little treat from there plate. I guess that Bear taught you that because I do not remember doing so.

Times were difficult for us, my love. You did not trust me or any other human for that matter. You could not see what my heart had to offer. You did not understand that some humans were good. Your past kept reflecting into the present and you were unable to see who I am. Many times you bit me my love. Many times you made me bleed. But I stood by your side. As your aggression got worse I began to become scared for you, my love. Scared but even more determined to never leave you.

Times became even more difficult for us my love. On that cold Tuesday night in March. I rushed home from work to be with you. You had a seizure that night, my love. We took you to the vet, afraid for you. But you were brave my love. Never once did you falter. We were sent home with you, my love. Told to come back for blood tests on Thursday.

Thursday came, my love. I was afraid for you once more. But agian you were brave. We dropped you off in the early morning and I cried as I walked out the door and went to work. All day at work I worried about my love. When I phoned the doctor at work he assured me that you were alright. I left work and came to you. I was early but it hurt to be without you.

The test results came in just before I got there. You were to happy to be let out of the pen to be worried about anything else. The results were bad, my love. I cryed many tears. My thoughts turned to many dark places for shelter, my love. But you were there with me. I told myself once more that you would always be there with me, my love. Never would I give up on you.

Some time later you started to sleep in my bed with me. I do not know whether or not you sensed my sadness, but you comforted me in those lonely teary nights. Together we slept. My hand holding your tiny paw. Together we slept. Side by side.

One night you were laying beside me. I had turned off the computer and was heading off to bed It was very late, my love. I was about to turn off the light when you looked up at me. You reached your tiny paw up and reached my face. you held your tiny little paw on my face. I laughed not knowing what you were doing. You then got up and licked my face. Then lay back down beside me. I cried. Tears of joy I shed all night.

Two weeks passed and we had to bring you back into see the vet. More tests were needed. Again I had to bring you back there. I feared wasting any moments of time without you. I did not want what little time we had left to be spent apart. We were allowed to go home together that day, my love. We drew some blood from you and then we were allowed to leave together. Together we came home. I do not know what thoughts dwelled within your mind, but I know that my mind was clouded with what the future inevitably held.

The call came in at about 5. All day I sat by the phone waiting for it to ring. My nerves could no longer handle it. The doctor was on the other line. He told me, my love. He told me that you were ok. He told me that there was nothing wrong with you. He told me that the previous tests had come back wrong for a list of reasons. You were ok my love. It was a miracle. You future was given back to you. Given back to us. We spent the whole night together, my love.

Time went on and you started to draw away from me once again, my love. Again your agression got worse. You bit me, made me bleed. But again I promised to stay with you. I knew that one day you would trust me. You learned so many things. Finally learned that the toilet is outside. You learned all but how to trust. Your blindness as well as your past kept you from trusting me.

I made a new promise to you, my love. I promised that our new time together would not be wasted. I hope that I have kept that promise to you, my love. Training you has been difficult, my love. You will not let me put a leash on you. You try to attack me. But I remain there by your side. Never could I let go. I know that you will learn one day to trust, my love. One day you will see in me all there is. One day you will learn how to love me, as much as I have learned how to love you.

That day has come my love. You have learned, my love. Love has shown you how things can be. You trust me now, my love. You let me hold you, hug you, kiss you and never let you go. The rays of love have shown through to you. No longer do you try to bite me. No longer do you show aggression to me. For you trust me now, my love. When you come running to me as I walk in the door, my love I know. I know that you trust me now.

I make a new promise to you, my love. I promise that I will never let you lose that gift which you have given me. I will never let you lose that which you have seen within me. The trust will never be lost. That I promise you, my love.

Tears well up in my eye as I write this to you my love. I know that you understand me. For we understand one another. The barrier of species and language do not apply to us, my love. When Love rules, nothing else matters. Love is the only thing that we must understand. We both understand it well now, my love.

I love you Sydney.

My Dearest ---2---,

You alone know how dear Sydney is to me. You alone know the wonder I hold in my heart for the scars I bear from her. You alone know that I have held her in my arms and comforted her in the midst of a seizure. You alone know the depth of the joy that I feel when she walks between my legs in greeting. You alone know the fullness of my happiness as I watch little Sydney dance to the song, "Girls," by the Beastie Boys. You alone know that I have stood by you, and comforted you, and rejoiced with you for her, and how much she means to me.

But all of that is as nothing compared to the depth of your love for her, and it may be that I have never read a more moving tribute to one still living. Your love gives her life, and her love makes you complete. Thank you for her; thank you for you; thank you for us. May our lives be long and happy together.

To both of you,

Love,

Doglet

Once more you made me cry my friend...
Im sitting here and reading this. At first i was affraid something bad might had happend to your little one, like back some months ago. But while i was reading further i noticed i was wrong and my fear turned to happiness and now im sitting here and im crying. Tears are running down my cheeks, tears of happyness that you both will stay together and that Sydney will be ok!! :)

Even though i was affraid her tests might have been bad i knew, i knew by heart and soul that they would be ok! I knew she would stay with you!!
Dont ask why or how i know it, but i know by heart that you both are ment to be together!!
Im so happy that another worrie is taken from you and that Sydneys future has brightend a little bit!!

She deserves it, you deserves it!! Im so happy for you two, i just dont know what to say! :)

Love is truly the most powerfull force in this world! Love doesnt cares for age, gender or even species! ;)

Doglet: I love you. I can not thank you enough for the help that you have given me with Sydney and your ongoing support. Thank you.

Honeyraptor: The gift of love is one which none of us can ask for. It is not something which can be bought. It can only be freely given. Sydney has given that to me. With trust and love our relationship can only grow. I love Sydney and I now know that she loves me. Love is the greatest bond that can exist between two beings.

Thank you so much my friend.

Very touching there ---2---. :( I to know what Sydney means to you. It is very nice when someone shares their real love with their lover on here. :)

Like Honeyraptor I feared the worst

when I started to read this.... My heart was pounding so hard I thought I was

going to pass out.... as I kept reading nearing the end I started to breath again

and felt so much relief knowing nothing horrible had transpired...


I hope you will always know Jeff that above and beyond all our differences that I

do with all my heart wish the very best for you and Sydney.... I am thrilled to

read that things are going so well and thrilled to know that my prayers have been

answered and yes I was praying.... praying because when I am desperate I turn

to prayer and when Sydneys first diagnosis had been so dismal all I could do was

pray and pray for her. Then when her second diagnosis had come back positive I

continued to pray and continued to hold my breath ....fearing still the worst could

still happen.... So I am thrilled to know she is doing so well and I am thrilled to

know my prayers were answered in that your love for each other continues to

evolve....

Always...
Wendy

Wolfie: Thanks for the kind words. I was very fortunate that Doglet was able to be with Sydney when she needed help. Not enough thanks can be given to him for helping. There are many who would be to afraid to try and deal with a seizure, or would leave a very afraid and untrusting dog in a car instead of staying with her and helping. But he is not one of them. I could not thank him enough.

Wendy: Since the first time that Sydney had a seizure you have given me support. You shone light on all of the darkness that surrounded me. You gave me reason to hold for hope. I will not live enough days to ever be able to thank you.

A miracle occured with Sydney. There is no doubt in my mind about that. Your prayers and the posative energy that you sent did something. What, I may not ever know. I do not pretend to understand such things but I do know that it is likely that Sydney's fate would still be up in the air had it not been for the prayers of you and all of the other wonderful people here. Again, I will not live enough days to be able to thank all of you for that.

We have shed so many tears together, you and I. I know as well as understand that you wish the very best for Sydney and I. But I hope that you understand how much I love you. I hope that you understand how much you mean to me. You were the first person who I learned to trust after what had happened. Something else that I could never thank you enough for. You showed me that people can be good. Showed me that life can be good. I will never forget what I have learned from you nor will I forget a single tear that we shed together. Thank you. Those two words do not even begin to express how I truly feel but I do not know what else to write. So... thank you.

This post has been edited by ---2--- on Jun 27 2004, 03:19 PM

Whow, it has been a long time I've been this over-emotional. Tears rolling down my cheeks -> first out of admiration, feeling the rage against the people who made her lose her faith in people, then felt realy bad for the terrible stuff the both of you had to face, again pure admiration for your love and how you just kept on going for it!
Then finaly tears with a face smiling for the unique thing the 3 of have going on :D you can't believe how glad I am with this -> your views on some things enlighten me in ways not too many people have done before!!!
Wish you all the best with your love!!! And well if it's possible keep me informed ;) cuz my thoughts will be with you guys

This post has been edited by Kimball_&_Rotty on Jun 27 2004, 04:02 PM

---2---,

I also was a bit worried opening this thread. But I am very glad to read of good news about you and Sydney!

I'm glad she's coming around to trusting you, and sure that you'll get even closer as time goes by.

*Hugs* my friend!

Sj

Kimball_&_Rotty: You are a very dear friend. You are one who I deeply respect on this forum. Your words mean a lot. I thank you sincerely for them.

I have no doubts that Sydney has given me the greatest gift that exists. She has given me her heart and her trust. Two things that one could not ask for. Two of the most precious things in life. I love her with all of my heart. I embrace in knowing that she feels the same way.

Sjpor: I have respected you for so long. I think of you as a really good friend. I appreciate your kind words. The relationship between Sydney and I has evolved a long way and will continue to evolve. Our time will not be wasted. Everyday that I wake up and see her there waiting for me I rejoice. My love for her runs so deeply that I have run out of things to say. All I can write is... I love you Sydney.

This post has been edited by ---2--- on Jun 27 2004, 04:58 PM

I was going to post this in the favourite song thread but I thought that it might be more appropriate here. The thread dedicated to Sydney... This song I have sung to her on many occasions. I sang it to her as I held her in my arms. I sang it to her and cried. Cried from uncertainty. Cried from joy. Cried from love, all that really matters.

I used to sing this song wondering when the day would come where I could sing the lyrics to the one that I love. That day was a few months ago. I sang many songs to my love at that time. She listens intently to every word. Each more powerful then the last as it completes a sentance that unfolds the story of the heart. This song is something that I cherish and hold close to my heart. It is called Love Of My Life by Frozen Ghost.

Love of my life, I don't have a lot to give you
What's in my heart is all that I can really give you
Love... undying love is all I have
A handful of words that might make you laugh
And all the strength you need
To make it through all your troubled times
I give all of myself to you
Only you
My dream come true

Love of my life, you are all I ever wanted
To be with you is all I ever really wanted
You... you've made my life a fairy tale
You've added love to a life that was so stale
And know that I'll be here
Always for you, when you need a friend
I give all of myself to you
Only you
My dream come true

I've been waiting my whole life for you
Now my waiting is through
All the nights I've spent dreaming I knew
That my dream would come true

So many nights
I laid awake dreaming I knew
One day I'd be with you
Now all my nights of dreaming are through
'Cause my dream has come true

Dream come true...

I love you Sydney. A day will not pass where I will neglect to tell you that.

Dear ---2---,I'm totally amazed by you and Sydney.You show such love and patience towards her that only a few people could.You said a miracle occured with Sydney - I would say the miracle is you yourself who's been with her in the hardest moments.

Thank you so much for the words my friend. I have always been there for Sydney and I will continue to be. She means the world to me.

*Hugs* to you K9_goddess. Thank you so much for your words. The support that I got from this board as well as from my dearest Doglet is what kept me going. Never will I forget all that the members here did for me. Neither could I ever forget your words of love and wisdom. Thank you K9_goddess. *big hugs* :wub:

Your most welcome ---2--- I love how the people in this place love and care for each other :wub:

Peace be with you and Sydney :wub:

Blessings :wub: k9g