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I don't understand why I haven't seen this thread earlier on. :blink: :unsure: You started this in June and I just now noticed it. If I would've seen this sooner I would've been one of the first to reply and tell you how deeply touching reading this thread was, it moved me to tears. At first I too was concerned and afraid that Sydney was in the hospital or even worse! :( I am SO glad she's OK now though. And I would like to say one other thing: I am so overjoyed that you are a part of this forum and the online zoo-community in general, --2--. You have shown to all what it REALLY means to be a zoophile. The greatest act of Love, is that of sacrifice of the self for another. Whether it be your own wants, desires, safety, health, etc, this is the case, as any right-thinking individual can clearly see. The fact that you stuck through this, and did it for HER, proves beyond any shadow of a doubt that you share with your animals true Love. :)

The depth and strength of one's heart is what makes a great individual, I believe (which, in turn, has a direct affect on one's treament of all animals). And in my book, you are a great man. An example for ALL here to live by in their relationships with non-human animals. I feel a great warmth and comfort in my heart and mind knowing that a beautiful german shepherd named Sydney--whom I've never met, yet through your beautiful words that touch me so deep, feel so much love for--is blessed to have someone like you in her life, and like wise, of course, vice-versa. We need more people like yourself in the zoo community, being an example to all of what a TRUE zoophile is.

*Hugs* to you, Bear and Sydney (even if she bites my face off :lol: :lol: )

Wonderfull said Wolfheart! Nothing left to add! ;)

You are a wonderfull guy 2 , and the way you care for your beloved shows this very well! :)

My dearest Wolfheart, Your words have touched the very center of my being. I do not consider what I did to be any kind of sacrfice. I do not consider it to be anything other then normal. Something that I would suspect most people would do for their lovers on this forum.

I love Sydney with all of my heart. We struggle together in our relationship. There are times when I feel beaten and warn down. The seizures in particular are starting to take an emotional toll. But my love for her is what keeps the light burning bright.

You are a dear friend Wolfheart. I thank you once again for your words. I do not consider any actions that I have ever taken to be that differently from what any of us would do. I would sacrifice everything for Sydney. There is no doubt of that in my mind. I can't imagine that any one would do anything differently for the one that they love.


Honeyraptor: You are such a dear friend. One who I have grown over time to respect so very deeply. I thank you for your words. You yourself are a great man. The world needs more like you.

---2--- i thought your story was really touching i can understand how u feel about your baby i almost killed someone for upsetting my baby (also a gsd) to me she is the most important thing on earth and i would gladly give my life so she didnt have to ever be upset with anything she has saved my life before and i still owe her for that
i have alot of respect for u mate after reading that because that kind of wording can not be made up or changed or altered in any way it is something that just flows from the heart and i think u r good at that
my baby is 2 years and i dread to think about any problems she may encounter as she gets older as it really messes me up inside
i think gettin a dog is like signin a contract sayin yeah u will have good times and bad times but the good times will far outweigh the bad times and one day we lose them that really screws u up inside it is like ur world has been turned upside down and spun around and it hurts a hell of alot but u have to look back at your lover and think would she want me to feel this way surely i should be thankful for her life
after reading that i admire you for for the way u never gave up on her and one day she returned the love it was like heaven came to earth dogs have a way of loving that no one or noting else can it is just in there nature especially gsds
how old is sydney?
i hope you and sydney continue to live long and happy lives i wish u all the best mate and take care of her you have a very special one there but u know that dont you

My dear friend. In our daily lives we so often fail to stop and recognize the miracles that exist all around us. So rarely do we recognize moments of signifigence. So rarely do we tell those we love that we love them. So often, do we fail to appreciate life as well as love.

The one thing that I learned more then anything back in March is to not let these moments slip. My eyes fill with tears as I write this... But I could have lost Sydney at that time. The preciousness of life, of love has been clearly shown to me. We all have only so long to grace this earth. We all will one day be dead. When we learn this and accept it, everything becomes more precious.

The feel of your lovers touch. The smell of your partners fur. The tapping of your lovers feet walking on the floor. The preciousness of her gaze meeting yours. The loose hairs that gather on your shirt. The infinate number of things that are taken away in a final breath.

In the second that we are born, we are granted the greatest gift that one could never ask for. The preciousness of life. The gateway to all that can be. All to often we neglect to see how precious this gift is. We do not tell those close to us what they mean. We do not hold those that we love as much as we could. So many things we fail to do.

Take every oppertunity that you have to pet your partners. To tell them that you love them. Just take every last second that you have to be with them. Because when you are lying under six feet of dirt, you will not be able to. It takes weeks and months to create life, and less then a second to end it. When you are not looking and the bus comes up from behind you. You will wish that you could take back those seconds to tell those beings.... how very much you love them.

I am sorry if I got on a rant but the preciousness of life is something that I see clearly. My friend... by spending the time with your beloved GSD you are doing all that you can ever do to not waste the gift that you have both been given. Never neglect to tell her how much you love her, scratch behind her ear, take that picture of her, do as many things as you can because you can.

Your words have touched my heart tremendousely tonight. Thank you. Sydney is 10 months old.

This post has been edited by ---2--- on Aug 2 2004, 04:36 AM

i cant believe she is only 10 months old it really is a shame for anyone to have to live life at all without one of the senses let alone the sense of sight one of the most important i believe
what is actually wrong with her eyes and are you entirely sure it cant be fixed
i have a lab who has a cataract in one of his eyes he has had it scince he was a pup and as soon as i can get the cash i will have it put right they want at least £1000
if she is ten months then i am sure alot of vets will be willing to help you
i am so sorry she never trusted you from day one but there is nothing nicer than when an animal only trusts you after it has been given a reason to it gives you a much deeper sense of trust one that will never be lost and will always be strong
when i got my baby i got her off of some weird man who i suspect was running a puppyfarm he had more dogs in a terrible state horses and the rspca wouldnt do sweet fa which sickend me even more and i thought it was horrible i never forget going down there and seeing how bad of a condition she was in it really sickend me she looked like she had not even been stroked in her whole life there were other gsds covered in flys it was like hell no access to water or anything.
many nights i would stay up just thinkin what i would do to the guy if i ever saw him again he had no right to treat my lover the way he did if i ever do see him lets just say he would have no knee caps or brains left in his head
i got her home and she was terrified of water i have no idea why but i spent about 3 hours trying to persaude her that having a bath wasnt gonna [CENSOR] her finally she trusted me i will never forget the terrified look in her eyes when i took her on a tube to bring her home she was terrified of everything from cats to something dropping on the floor i have a feeling she was stolen she is very well trained definately no thanks to him and she has really changed my life for the better without her i would be dead i know that for a fact
i was told he wanted 150 cash for her then i could do what i want with her apparantly she would make a good gaurd dog and she is she will defend me till death but i would never let her i love her too much to lose her or even think about it for that matter her life is far more precious than mine will ever be
after i got her the best 150 i ever spent put it that way she will never leave me
she used to cry her eyes out when i went to work so started sneakin her in with me till she didnt mind when i left her
i wont go on i am probably borin u thats just my story
look at her now you would never believe it
look mate if your baby does leave you hard as it is to come to terms with it i know i want you to know she is going to a better place a place where she can see a place where she can run freely without fear of running into things and a place she can be with her doggy freinds but that doesnt mean she will leave you she will wait there for you just like all of our other lovers waiting for us their human to come and take them and look after them
and waiting for you to place your face in her fur once again and cuddle her
but dont look at that aspect of things just yet slow down she is still there with you still breathing still in her body and until that time comes she will be there for you and vice versa
maybe there is a way for her to avoid her seizures and maybe she wil be able to get her eyes fixed
i dont see any reason why there shouldnt be
look you have been blessed some how you have come into posession of such an important life one you must hold onto no matter what happens she is very precious and maybe she is blind and ill but you have still been given this life to look after and to hold onto one day it will be taken away from you but i personally doubt that will happen for a good few years
look the way i feel there is one power that runs life thats not god that is love no matter what happens i dont think i even need to tell you stand there right by her side look after her i think if u do enough research you will find u can fix her eves and maybe make her feel better
i have to say ---2---you only get a dog that loves you that much once in your life dont let it go with out a fight

i do pay so much attention to her it is crazy when i am not working she is by my side either assleep in bed with me or just being bored to death by my life stories i have to tell someone and yeah i will take some more pics of her reminds me of that feeling u never know what youve got till its gone
hold her tight to u tell her it will be okay she will understand i promise she knows how much u love her
like i said she is very special take care of her and your self

Again my friend you have touched me with your words. Do not ever apoligize for writing anything. Share your stories. I am only too happy to read them. We have the ability to do so much good with our words. I love reading what you write.

With regards to Sydney's sight, she was either born blind or became blind after suffering abuse. Sydney was found abandoned in a park in November. She was less then a month old. She almost died but was saved by my vet. We believe that her neurological problems stem from this abuse. The doctor has told me that there is nothing that he can do other then prescribe drugs for her. Since the drugs destroy her vital organs over time I need to see what other options there are. I plan on contacting the University of Guelph Veterinary department and seeing what they can do.

While Sydney is no where near where a "normal" dog should be in terms of trust, she has begun to trust me. I need to start training her so we can build our bond together. I have no doubts that over time, she will trust me 100%. But that will take time. It is very difficult to undo all that she has suffered.

I definately realize what a gift I have been given. I realized this the moment that Sydney was placed in my arms. And that knowledge has only become more and more clear. She is my little baby... and I will never give up on her.

I realize that life can end in less then a moment. Back in March, Doglet taught me something that perhaps saved my life. All things are impermanent. I realize that at any moment she or even I can die. I therefor only strive to live in the moment because that is all that matters. We do not know what will happen in the future and that which happened in the past no longer matters.

I love her with all my heart. I do not focus on what will happen in the future. Instead I focus on telling her how much I love her. Petting her as she walks by. Lying on the floor waiting for her to curl up beside me. These are the things that I focus on because this is all that matters. The time that we have is so limited that it makes no sense to waste it. So I try not to.

I am terribly sorry to hear of the horrific conditions that your baby had to live in. People like that do not deserve to be here. But my friend, to do harm to them would only result in the greatest of harm being done to you. As much as these people deserve what they get, it is to dangerous for you to do anything to such a person. That person is not worth you going to jail and losing those that you love. He is just not worth it.

It is extremely fortunate that your lover found someone like you. Someone who was willing to take the time to show her how life can be. There are to many who just do not care and would not be bothered with such a dog. But you realize how very special it is to have the one that you love finally open up and trust you. That is by far the greatest feeling. Knowing that she has finally opened up to you. That is an amazing gift and you certainly deserve it.

I am very happy that you do not let the moments slip. Do all those things that you can now, because you can. We all need to live in the moment. You will be happy for that time that you spent and the pictures that you took. These precious memories will keep your lover alive for all eternity. But you need not spend any time thinking about that day in the future. You need to live in the moment and treasure the moments that you have with her now.

---2--- you really do have a deep pure heart i dont know what that means maybe you do thanx alot i love reading your stories and advice u give to people it has a way of being almost poetic and so deep from the heart it is really amazing

this is just a thought but maybe your girl would rather take the drugs and maybe live a shorter but happier life knowing who it is that loves and looks after her so well but if you have other options dont take em but keep em in mind as a last resort you probably already know but there is a drug u can get from vets called DAP it is basically a canine faramone that u plug into a socket and over about 4 weeks releases a vapour into the air that tells the dog everything is great with the world i found it fairly useful for calming my lab down. and it has no bad side effects u cant even smell it yourself irritating as i found this coz i need a drug like this cannabis doesnt last long enough

no body has asked you to undo all that she has suffered as great as that would be if you could all she asks is for you to look after her love her take care of her and respect her but i dont need to say this because u obviously already know to be honest i think her learning that some humans arent nice can be a good thing and all she needs is one nice human like you who will never let her down or kick her ribs in or starve her that is all she needs and wants

training her sounds like a brillian way of gaining each others trust and it does work also other ways are give her a brush or even better a long tight hug tell her how you feel and believe me if she is as brilliant of a dog as i think she will respond in some way maybe her eyes will glow maybe she will look u in the eyes i dont know but u will find out

no dont give her up never give her up unless it is what she wants and needs then be prepared to sacrifice your happiness and love for hers that is what love is all about

doglet is a very clever man and i aggree with him fully who is to say someone wont shoot u tomorrow who is to say u wont be hit by a bus or fall out of a building all we as humans should do is what we enjoy doing what our lovers enjoy reminds me a bit of the phrase what goes around comes around
the most important things in life isnt money gold cars or jewels it is memories those are the most precious things anyone gets these can be anything from being with mates and smoking a spliff and laughing over all the shit life throws at you to looking deep into your lovers eyes and telling them how much they mean to u it can be almost anything

yeah well i dont like this guy and i know that my baby is more important to me than putting a slug through his eyeball well i would at least have a strong conversation that hurts even more than a bullet just say he'll wish he was dead afterwards one day though i will go and pay him a visit with some freinds late at night and take the rest of the dogs off of him if he is still there where i got my girl from i doubt it

yeah it is true that is the nicest feeling to have a dog or any animal for that matter that after much help does finally begin to trust you it is the nicest feeling i have ever felt anyway kind of reminds me of u and sydney alot more and u know how deep and beautiful that feeling is

yeah i hate to think of the day when ill lose her not for a long long time though or the other way around which really wouldnt suprise me atall nor many other people but forget photos although i do take em when i can she is so funny in some of her pics starin side ways at the camera and all wonderin what what the camera is maybe oneday that is all ill have left of her except for one thing that really matters the feel of her fur against me when i hug her and the feel of her cold wet snout on the back of my neck as annoying as it is now i do really love it and will miss it

the way i feel there is nothing deeper than love between a man and his dog sometimes love of the living animal can last a few seconds to a few years it doesnt matter all that matters is the depth of the love and how far the participants will go to show it be this sacrificing ones life or kickin them in the ribs that is all that matters in love and life in general
what i am saying here reminds me of a poem i will try to track down for ya
though this world is a living hell there are some nice things in it like the feeling of love accomplishment etc those things never leave u where as other thing do

Pitbull: I realy do appreciate your words. Knowing the depth of your heart, your words do really mean a lot to me.

The decision of what to do with Sydney will be a hard one. The drugs are a last resort. But that option has not been ruled out.

I know that knowone has asked me to undo the damage but to me that does not matter. She needs to learn that she can trust people. And I will do all that I can to ensure that she knows that she needs not fear me or others. I need her to know that she comes first and I will pretect her life with my own.

I can understand your feelings on that guy that you talk about. People like him do not deserve to be here. But I am also happy to know that you realize he is not worth it. There are so many in this world who should not be here but they are. There is, unfortunately little that can be done about it.

This world is indeed full of many wonderful things. While countless things can wear you down over time...it is the good things that we must live for. That poem was incredible and I do thank you for it. It speaks nothing but the truth. The love that an animal has is incredible. We could learn a lot about love by watching a dog.