Yes yes, friends only. It never worked out with a human relationship, there never was any attraction and all my GF's felt it. I always pleased them but they could tell I wasn't.
But it's all good, I'm finally starting to except who I am. :D Its been very lonely but I'm a very strong person, it'll probably be a year before I can get the lover and life style I want, but I'm sure it's way worth the wait. :P

This post has been edited by Retribution_4_TW on May 27 2008, 12:50 PM

Just got back from my older tribe brothers house. I'm so fucking drunk. Thanx to him I can make it till Friday without having to starve or ride me bike 10 miles to work. :lol: Still, I'm going to have the worst hang over tomorrow.:beer: I'm going to get some sleep now.

BTW GTA 4 is a fucking awesome and fun game.

Sorry to get off topic-I guess I don't understand how you can have all kinds of money for beer/booze to get drunk with, yet you blame George Bush for you carrying a negative balance on your bank account. YOU are the reason you are broke. If you believe that one man, even the POTUS, can control your financial destiny, then it's time to wake up a bit bro. This is America. Wealth is created in America, it is earned. You can lay the blame for our current problems on your fellow greedy contrymen who think they are OWED a fancy house, two $40,000 vehicles, a pool, a vacation home, and a credit card with no limit. At some point that house of cards has to fall, and we are starting to see it. The banks didn't, and we are paying the price for our sins.

Sorry bud, it's an election year-it looks like the mainstream media got ya hook, line, and sinker.

Sounds you really had fun:) It's cool that you can share your feelings with your family. For me, this isn't an option at all.

You hit the nail on the head lol. I pretty much have no sexual attractions to humans althrough I do have a sexual attraction of women with animals. And they're right the love for an animal should occour way before the sex. I love my dog to death but she is too small to have sex with. But I still love her way more than I could any human. The only thing different is I am a recovering alcoholic I go to my AA meetings. It helps me be proud of who I am and keep my life on the right track they're friendly and dont care who I am... because thats who I am and they can't change that not that I tell them that im a zoophile. But I am proud of who I am. Maybe one day I will find a girl into this I mean I dunno try and see what works best for you not others. Because it is a lot easier for me to be myself than try and change who I am.

lol, brother don't even talk to me about politics, I know way more than the average person; trust me I many many friends in high places. And what I said was a joke, Bush is just a political puppet, like every president is.

I didn't spend a penny on alcohol, my brother bought it. I'm broke because I had to drop $700 for rent and $460 to help my dad with his and have to pay about $150 a week on gas. Thats not even counting food, so thats why I'm broke, I blame no one but fools and cowards for the troubles of the country. If they all got off their asses and learned something instead of claiming ignorance and abstinence, and stood up for their rights and whats right this country would be a greater place.

But thanx for your opinion and trying to help me with some advice. You should be teaching others of your knowledge brother, your preaching to the teacher right now. :lol: B)

Today was a cool and irritating day. Cool cause today was my first time going on a helicopter patrol, very fun. lol :D But very irritating because I just recently stopped smoking sigs cold turkey and every little things basically pisses me off. The main tech cooperate peeps took the flash players off most of the computers so I can't do anything fun with my office computer anymore, and if I by pass the restrictions I'll be suspended for some time. :(

I'm still negative in the bank and it almost sets me over the edge, especially when I always help everyone out in their time of need and when I need help, they basically tell me to :censored: myself. :evil: :badwords: them anyways, I won't ever help them again.
I only got $20 from my brother but the rest will be spent tomorrow for gas, I can go till Friday without eating but I'm going to be such an asshole. lol :lol: No nicotine and food can turn the kindest people into asses. Bit what ever is just another day in "paradise". :P

:mellow: I'm up and I can't fall asleep. It's 0418 Wednesday morning. I don't have to be to work till 1500. I can't sleep because I have no many negative thoughts running through my head right now, and because I need a sig. ...Dam the nicotine. <_<

I keep thinking about my current situation. Am I going to remain alone the rest of my life, how much longer will I have to live like this, when will the world finally except us? These are just some of the things running through my head right now.

I don't know how I've made it this far. I don't mean to bitch but it helps and slightly comforts me typing out my problems and getting them off my chest. -_-

But I've lived my entire life alone(emotionally). I had a shitty childhood riddled with abuse (mental and physical) by both my parents, drugs, poverty. I don't feel like talking too much about that right now. But I've been extremely lonely for...I can honestly say my entire life. :pinch: I can't have a beast lover because I can't find an affordable place to live that allows pets., and I've never was attracted to people. Huuu...I don't know what to do other than wait and hope I'll be able to live and have the life I want.

P.S. I hope everyone active here really cherishes and appreciates their zoo lovers, your very fortunate to have what you do. :wub: I sooooo jealous. :P

I know that, you guys don't have to tell me. Sex isn't that important to me, I want a beast lover, not a furry fuck toy. :lol: My old dog bear, I could never fuck her but I loved her with all my heart. :wub:

:rolleyes: Please read the rules.


Rule 5.1.24: DO NOT discuss religion or politics.

Im living with my mom till I go off to college this fall just graduated high school and man where do you live in the city? If your landlord doesnt come by often get a dog anyway They dont allow pets in the house we live in but we have a ton of them lol. Man I don't know what I am going to do going off to college this fall without my doggie. And hey man talking about anything helps the situation tremendously lol. of course thats 3 months of rehab talking... but anyway hang in there. I have to do things today not expecting anything in return from anyone because if I help them its not their responsibility to do the same for me...it can really piss me off sometimes but ya know thats just life. You're never alone man thats why we have this forum because we are who we are and we share that together on the net... technology what a concept... oh well I'll shut up and im off to bed.

Thanx brother true zoo. lol :lol: I live in south San Diego California.

I can't have any pets because I live with my landlord :D And all other places are way out of my price range. Thats cool ur still living with your parents rent free, I don't have that option. Take advantige of it and save every penny you have, trust me it's a cold world out there. :P

Ya I bet ur going miss ur pup a lot. I still miss Bear. :( It's been over a year now. But at least its not that long, I haven't been with anyone or anything for...probably 7 months now. lol :blush: But the not being with people was my choice.

Yup I know I'm not completely alone, I have my beast buddies here. ^_^ And that's what helps me a lot. I can finally talk with like minded people and be who I truly am.

Thanx for reading :)

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Today was day one of no food and no money. It was a typical day at work nothing new. I don't know how I'm going to make it till Friday. I'm so hungry and weak, but I'm not so concerned about that. I am on low fuel and I might only be able to make it to work, I don't know how I'm going to get back tomorrow. I guess I'll just sleep at work in my office. :lol:
Tomorrow is going to be a huge day at the FRC I'm currently stationed at. I just hope no one tries to start anything with me tomorrow because my temper is out of control due to starving to death. :P Two more days till I can eat and start living normally again. :rolleyes:

From now on I'm not lending out any money or financially helping anyone. I have a credit card on the way through the mail so this won't ever happen again. Let me tell you...lesson learned. :lol:

I'm going to play hell's gate London and kick back. BTW if you liked Diablo one and two this is the game for you, same makers and mostly the same set up. But it has a cool new system to it, it's almost halo/diablo hybrid.

Are you going to be allright?