I'll start off by saying this is not about an underage mare... she was full grown... Also, I feel so lucky to be able to share this kinda talk with people of like minds and even with that having been said, can't believe I'm about to spill this... lol

So I've been zoo for about 20 years now and won't bore you with details of all the stuff I've done, you can see my profile if interested for a brief summary of that. Nor will I talk of my first time, as that didn't really go as well as I would have hoped, but I will share the one that I truly call... my first love.

A few years ago I got the chance to stay out on a relatives farm for a couple months because my mom was renting a house on the property and I wanted to spend some time with her out there and enjoy the country life for a while and to help do some work.

A rather nice place, clean, not huge though being under 100 acres or so and having very few neighbors around I found it delightful beyond belief having never really had a chance to have anything like that being stuck in the city most of my life.

So anyways to the real deal of this little post... when I got there the first thing that happened was my uncle showed off his two mares to me there. <names withheld> lol... I spent a few minutes admiring, but was very careful, cause my uncle is not zoo, to show no peaked interest in them at all and not even getting close enough to touch them. My uncle even thought I was scared of them, he later said, cause of my initial reaction, but how little he knows.

Anyways over the next two weeks I spent more and more time just being around them. It was easy cause I was helping him build a new fence around the horse area and they were after all... curious about it, and would hangout right there with us most of the time.

My uncle, now past thinking I was scared of them, even thought it amusing how much one of them was seeming to be very interested in staying wherever I happened to be at and waiting for my return when I would pop off to get a tool or nails or whatever. Again, I was real careful about how I took his remarks and even joked about it a bit to help throw him off.

So a week or so goes by of this and my uncle isn't really around much during the work now do to back trouble. He just had to be there at first to show me how what is done and such... I didn't mind at all cause hard work don't phase me much and I indeed liked being off on my own with my 'new friend'. Even if just to watch me do my thing.

Now and then, having plenty of privacy around, I would get close to her and just talk softly and pet her and hold her against me for short bits at a time... still scared I may be seen I always did it in a subtle way and not a blatant 'I wuv u' sorta way.

So this went on for another week or so and the fence got finished. Much to my dismay, so I flat out would talk with my uncle about how I really got a kick outta how his horse seemed to like me and I'd like to just hang out now and then with her cause it was relaxing. I even threw in a 'don't worry I won't hump her' joke to be funny. He just laughed a bit and said nothing.

If I was to guess I'd say he had his suspicions about that and didn't care much for the thought of it, but at that point I just didn't worry about it and wanted to take advantage of the time I could get with her. Not for sex either, just to have her with me walking or even sitting down for a bit on the side of a small hill and have her just be there with me. I so loved that I can't even put into words how at peace that made me feel.

This went on for a couple weeks... during which the times I would drop by to see her, sometimes even with my mom or uncle there with me, I'd just play around with her like a boy and his dog. My uncle in fact was very shocked at how well I knew her already and how I could get her to do things with simple looks or statements to her. How I could make her do that lip up smile thing by a pet on a certain spot. How I knew she loved to get fed a cigarette with the filter ripped off. Sometimes she would even grab one outta my hand before I could light it. That's how I knew she liked em, she did that the first time... lol How she loved drinking mountain dew from a plastic bottle by holding it in her mouth and tilting her head up... I knew this creature better than any person in my entire existence.

Now before I get to the more intimate parts of this let me say that's not even important but I look at that as the ultimate way to show love towards another living thing. I would have been perfectly happy without any of that but as you will see there is a reason it came up.

Not sure how long, but I think about 2-3 weeks before I was gonna leave my 6 week country outing at my uncles, this beautiful creature that obviously was never cared for as much as I was giving, made it clear that she completely loved me. I mean I knew she liked me from the 'bite on the ass' type stuff she was doing relatively early on, but this was way more personal. I'm just glad she chose, or perhaps knew, to only do what she did when I was alone with her.

One day out of the blue though is when it hit, she turned with her side facing me and lifted her tail up... it had already been sorta half up I had noticed earlier at one point... at first I thought she was, well you know, gonna go to the bathroom as it were, but no. She was in heat and when she did what she did... let's just say I turned red as red can get... and spent the next few minutes just in awe and looking around me constantly to see if anyone else was out there seeing this.

Keep in mind, this was a maiden mare... she had zero sexual experience and had never even seen a male horse before... and my uncle, trust me, is not a zoo and he did nothing. So unless some neighbor had snuck over at some point, and the thought of that makes me very sad, she had no way of knowing of such things... yet there she was, flat out asking me to be her mate in the most personal way I had ever seen in my life.

I was too scared to do anything out in the open at that time... even as she was right there, so loving before me, so willing and wanting to serve me. Backing up against me bit later and almost shoving me over twice... XD Needless to say I had to think carefully on my next move.

I spent the rest of that day with her a bit, like I said, I did nothing beyond holding her close loving on her non sexually.

That night I could not sleep, but I didn't get up the nerve to go down to the barn I knew she was most likely now inside of... so I just thought on it... constantly... what should I do... I have to leave soon, I don't want to get so close then just have it ripped away from me... but if I leave and do not, I will hate myself for not doing it. For reasons of taking advantage of the situation and for reasons of not giving her what she obviously wants, if only for a couple weeks.

And what if I get caught? What will my uncle think... my God what will my mom think? I'll end up in jail... I don't want to ruin my life. I spent the next day away from my lovely, just to think things over and spend a bit more time with the family I did indeed come here initially to visit anyways. Not that I spent all my time hiking or walking around or hanging out with the mare but it was getting to be a lot.

Needless to say I did decide to share myself with this fine creature. The next few days I spent slowly playing with her in more and more intimate ways late at night in the barn. Softly, tenderly, and not in a dis-tasteful manner. Watching her lift her tail and wiggle her ass at me as I played... her obviously being happy with the situation. Sometimes so much so that she got a bit loud and scared me because the house was not far away really.

We did it all together, and I mean it all... and I know in my heart she was as happy with this as I was. She would always let me know when enough was enough and I would happily stop and... self finish lets say... but when she would turn around and always keep her butt away from me... that's when I knew it was cuddle time. Though, no joke, she did do that a more than a few times and shock me by licking on certain parts of my body then doing that up lip smile thing... after I... well nm... but OMG, THAT WAS FANTASTIC. I had no idea the tongue was so ruff... and the thought of doing that with her never even crossed my mind... I blame the origins of that idea entirely on her. lol

Towards the end of my stay, as the 'big day' came closer and closer, I got more and more depressed over it. Being asked more than once by my mom what was wrong... I just said I was going to miss her and the country... not dare saying what else I would miss. I mean I would miss her, my uncle, the country... but I must shamefully admit that what I would miss most is what I still miss the most... that beautiful, loving, completely in my heart, maiden mare.

I hope you liked my sharing of this and I'm just glad I can finally get this off my chest and at least tell someone about it... even if it is a bunch of net strangers I'll never see in person.

M.D.

Just thought I'd add the poem I wrote about her recently, years later... here tis:


Poem for a Horse




Slender grace and powerful stance
Knowing not of fate or happenstance
Yet in better terms you comprehend
How to live in the now, this moment

Loyal and sound on the best of levels
Not clouded by selfish wants or devils
Pure in heart and even maybe of soul
Not capable of sin or even of it know

Caring by you and your like I have seen
How you come close and protect in between
The way you keep your own family safe
Shows me truly the path that you do take

Watching you off and on throughout the day
Smiling as you are so happily at play
Seeing how my presence brings your eyes a glow
Makes me feel as bright as new fallen snow

Oh how you nip at my back when I turn away
How you bring smiles to my face every day
Running by in glee as I work in the fields
Staying at my side, at my very heels

In these ways surely you display to all
That more lies beneath that long brow
A mind that knows how to care and love
I place you in my heart, my dreams, above

A very heartwarming story, Dracose. I'm glad you got it off your chest, as you said. Thanks very much for sharing and I hope you will want to share some of your other expriences.
LTD

Thank you very much for posting such a nice comment about my first mare experience. First time is always the most special I suppose. hehe

I may or may not post further experiences on here... I have yet to decide that one, but I'll keep thinking on it.

Thank you for posting this, a very touching story. The first love always holds a special place in your heart.

You get a big 10 from me :)

Thank you. :D and yes my first mare will stay in my heart forever... I fell really hard for her and in fact later on when my uncle mated her to get her pregnant and I found out I felt horrible beyond reason, and angry... and jealous, for a long long while. Then became happy for her cause now she had a family.

Sadly, btw, for those interested in what happened with her eventually in recent days... my uncle got divorced and the farm went back to the bank... blah blah blah it was a big mess and now the horses are who knows where and the farm was sold to someone else at an insanely low price for debt collection.

Man if that don't %$#! me off... ungh... anyways, moving on... -_-

<_< Always trust the debt collectors or police to stuff up your life

*shudders as recalls a previous time*

That was very sweet and sounded like it was very passionate... I really hope you can find that same horse later on and "re-ignite the fire" because I'm sure she will remember you..... I'm glad you found happiness with an animal as graceful as a horse... and I hope sincerely that you one day find that special horse once again. ^_^

That is one of the most beautiful and heartwarming stories I've heard! It really shows the passion and love you put in this relationship!

Prank

Beautiful story hun...I had a very, very similiar relationship and passion with my horse, Buck. Reading this made me remember my first love and the feelings we shared...made me tear up remembering the days and night of shared affection and sleeping against his belly on the floor of the stall, just listening to his heartbeat. He died suddenly from liver disease with his head in my lap, losing him broke my heart in two and it's never fully healed, if I'm honest with myself. I've never forgotten him, my first love. :heart:

Thank you so much for sharing your love with us...I'm not the only one whose heart and memories were touched, I'm sure.

:wub: wow this was a very sweet story and u told it so well. good job :rock:

That was a great story. I really enjoyed reading it. I'd love to see more stories like this one here !

Loved the story. Nice to here how you were persued. Vry awesome and tender story.